033 In the Middle
I'm hoping the effects of these antibiotics don't sneak up on me. I have been trying to play it smart in terms of my training and racing. The intensity of my training has taken a step back. I'm looking at my long term goals and health.
I'll be honest I'm ready to get back onto a training schedule. I think that is why I'm feeling a little lost right now. I never really felt like I got into a good training block this winter after cyclo-cross nationals. I was dealing with an injury that I thought would just resolve itself with some time off training. Funny how injuries don't work that way. The dull ache in my left hamstring that I had been experiencing since November turned out to be caused by my twisted tailbone. I haven't been able to pin point the exact thing that caused it. Really it could have been as simple as twisting to put a load of laundry into the washing machine.
My flexible back was good for gymnastics, but can be bad in terms of ab stability. I have learned not to confuse ab strength with ab stability. So I worked with an awesome physical therapist who is also a competitive cyclist, and we got my glutes firing and abs stabilizing. I came into the road season feeling strong and pedaling more efficiently. I knew my top end and sprint still needed work, but I was okay with that. I was ready to built into the season and hopefully my July races would be better for it. I guess that's why I'm so ready to get back on track after this tooth derailment.
BA and I found ourselves in the middle of some business decisions. We didn't take them personally. It was business and we understood that. Do not mistake my talk of business decisions with necessarily monetary gain. We found ourselves and our personal assets open to liable, me through marriage. We can only blame ourselves for following the lead and ignorance of others and not educating ourselves. We then had to make an informed business decision for ourselves to protect what we have worked for outside of said business. That business decision we had to make was taken personally.
I will speak for myself when I say I am feeling used and a little lost at the moment.
Time will march on and the days will fall into place. New opportunities will and have presented them self. Now all we can do is be more educated and cautious.
"Just do your best, do everything you can, and don't you worry what their bitter hearts are gonna say."
(The Middle / Jimmy Eat World)